Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Old Covenant/New Covenant

      I don't claim any authority.  I certainly don't think I have everything right.  I am learning. These things are things that the Lord has put into my heart, and has asked my to share them.  I  am not perfect in writing, but I know that the Lord can make all things understood and known.  May the Lord bless us all to come unto Him.  

    There are many within the Remnant/Restoration movement who think that a covenant will be given them, that will bring them to be members of the Remnant of Jacob, or House of Israel.  While it may do that, it is a roundabout way to do things. There are two ways to become a member of the House of Israel.  1. By blood.  2. By adoption. There is only one way given by which the House of Israel and the Gentiles, or those who have been adopted into the House of Israel may receive Salvation and Exaltation. They all must fulfill the same requirements.  There is nothing special about either, nor is there anything lacking in either, it is a matter of self-selection. Galatians 3:28 There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus.
29 And if ye be Christ’s, then are ye Abraham’s seed, and heirs according to the promise. Having read the covenant, I recognize that all that is happening, happened many years ago to the Isrealites when they came out of Egypt.

     When Moses led the Israelites, out of Egypt, the Lord was desirous to have them come up the mountain and speak with him directly, but they would not.  The Lord sought to gather them in, but they would not, for they could not let go of the idol worship that was had and taught among them during their time in Egypt.  It was needs be then that the Israelites would be cleansed of their idolatry.  Idolatry, in some ways,is laziness.  Instead of doing the work, laboring and struggling in a relationship with the Lord, it is easier to build symbols, pictures, statues, altars, temples, etc., of things that remind us of Him.  Things that give us a sense of a relationship or dedication to Him.  God was merciful unto the Israelites.  Instead of casting them off, he taught them, guided them, and gave them experience.  They sought idols and could not let go of them, so the Lord had them build a temple, an altar, a Holy of Holies. A symbol of our body and our heart.  He gave them laws to live by, an eye for an eye, the ten commandments, because they could not receive the fullness of the law.  He gave them sacrifices of lamb, ordinances to cleanse sin, and High Priests who could perform these for them, to symbolize the ultimate sacrifice and the High Priest who would perform this for our sins.   Numbers 15:37-41  37 ¶ And the Lord spake unto Moses, saying,
38 Speak unto the children of Israel, and bid them that they make them fringes in the borders of their garments throughout their generations, and that they put upon the fringe of the borders a rib band of blue: 39 And it shall be unto you for a fringe, that ye may look upon it, and remember all the commandments of the Lord, and do them; and that ye seek not after your own heart and your own eyes, after which ye use to go a whoring: 40 That ye may remember, and do all my commandments, and be holy unto your God. 41 I am the Lord your God, which brought you out of the land of Egypt, to be your God: I am the Lord your God.   This is the Law of Moses, because Moses became the mediator of this new covenant.  Moses became the mouthpiece for God to the Israelites who would not seek for themselves.  Hebrews 9 Then verily the first covenant had also ordinances of divine service, and a worldly sanctuary.
For there was a tabernacle made; the first, wherein was the candlestick, and the table, and the shewbread; which is called the sanctuary.
And after the second veil, the tabernacle which is called the Holiest of all;
Which had the golden censer, and the ark of the covenant overlaid round about with gold, wherein was the golden pot that had manna, and Aaron’s rod that budded, and the tables of the covenant;
And over it the cherubims of glory shadowing the mercyseat; of which we cannot now speak particularly.
Now when these things were thus ordained, the priestswent always into the first tabernacle, accomplishing the service of God.
But into the second went the high priest alone once every year, not without blood, which he offered for himself, and for the errors of the people: The Holy Ghost this signifying, that the way into the holiest of all was not yet made manifest, while as the first tabernacle was yet standing:
Which was a figure for the time then present, in which were offered both gifts and sacrifices, that could not make him that did the service perfect, as pertaining to the conscience;
10 Which stood only in meats and drinks, and divers washings, and carnal ordinances, imposed on them until the time of reformation.
11 But Christ being come an high priest of good things to come, by a greater and more perfect tabernacle, not made with hands, that is to say, not of this building;
12 Neither by the blood of goats and calves, but by his own blood he entered in once into the holy place, having obtained eternal redemption for us.
13 For if the blood of bulls and of goats, and the ashes of an heifer sprinkling the unclean, sanctifieth to the purifying of the flesh:
14 How much more shall the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without spot to God, purge your conscience from dead works to serve the living God?
15 And for this cause he is the mediator of the new testament, that by means of death, for the redemption of the transgressions that were under the first testament, they which are called might receive the promise of eternal inheritance.
16 For where a testament is, there must also of necessity be the death of the testator.
17 For a testament is of force after men are dead: otherwise it is of no strength at all while the testator liveth.
18 Whereupon neither the first testament was dedicated without blood.
19 For when Moses had spoken every precept to all the people according to the law, he took the blood of calves and of goats, with water, and scarlet wool, and hyssop, and sprinkled both the book, and all the people,
20 Saying, This is the blood of the testament which God hath enjoined unto you.
21 Moreover he sprinkled with blood both the tabernacle, and all the vessels of the ministry.
22 And almost all things are by the law purged with blood; and without shedding of blood is no remission.
23 It was therefore necessary that the patterns of things in the heavens should be purified with these; but the heavenly things themselves with better sacrifices than these.
24 For Christ is not entered into the holy places made with hands, which are the figures of the true; but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God for us:
25 Nor yet that he should offer himself often, as the high priest entereth into the holy place every year with blood of others;
26 For then must he often have suffered since the foundation of the world: but now once in the end of the world hath he appeared to put away sin by the sacrifice of himself.
27 And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:
28 So Christ was once offered to bear the sins of many; and unto them that look for him shall he appear the second time without sin unto salvation.
     Christ fulfilled all the law and the prophets.  He fulfilled the law of Moses.  How grateful we should be for this, for the law was dead, and it could not bring life into us, for we never would be able to receive salvation by living the law, for we never could live it perfectly.  Christ, in the Sermon on the Mount, offered a more perfect living of the Ten Commandments.  I would encourage those who are interested to go and read the laws that were given in Exodus 20-23, to the children of Israel, and then go and read the teachings of the Temple on the Mount.  The ten commandments were not done away, but only made more perfect, or full by the teachings and examples of Jesus Christ.  Then in Exodus 24, see the sacrifice that was made in order for the people to accept the law of the Ten Commandments, or the Law of Moses, as he was the mediator of the Old Covenant.  In Hebrews 8, Paul talks about the need for a New Covenant, why it was needed and how the people would receive it. Hebrews 8:6-13 But now hath he obtained a more excellent ministry, by how much also he is the mediator of a better covenant, which was established upon better promises.
For if that first covenant had been faultless, then should no place have been sought for the second.
For finding fault with them, he saith, Behold, the days come, saith the Lord, when I will make a new covenant with the house of Israel and with the house of Judah:
Not according to the covenant that I made with their fathers in the day when I took them by the hand to lead them out of the land of Egypt; because they continued not in my covenant, and I regarded them not, saith the Lord.
10 For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith the Lord; I will put my laws into their mind, and write them in their hearts: and I will be to them a God, and they shall be to me a people:
11 And they shall not teach every man his neighbour, and every man his brother, saying, Know the Lord: for all shall know me, from the least to the greatest.
12 For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their iniquities will I remember no more.
13 In that he saith, A new covenant, he hath made the first old. Now that which decayeth and waxeth old is ready to vanish away.
    Many prophets looked forward to the coming of Christ, with the understanding that He would do away with the law, and that the law was a teacher, to lead them to something more. To desire for something more. Hebrews 7:19  19 For the law made nothing perfect, but the bringing in of a better hope did; by the which we draw nigh unto God.  2 Nephi 25:23-30  23 For we labor diligently to write, to persuade our children, and also our brethren, to believe in Christ, and to be reconciled to God; for we know that it is by grace that we are saved, after all we can do.
24 And, notwithstanding we believe in Christ, we keep the law of Moses, and look forward with steadfastness unto Christ, until the law shall be fulfilled.
25 For, for this end was the law given; wherefore the law hath become dead unto us, and we are made alive in Christ because of our faith; yet we keep the law because of the commandments.
26 And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins.
27 Wherefore, we speak concerning the law that our children may know the deadness of the law; and they, by knowing the deadness of the law, may look forward unto that life which is in Christ, and know for what end the law was given. And after the law is fulfilled in Christ, that they need not harden their hearts against him when the law ought to be done away.
28 And now behold, my people, ye are a stiffnecked people; wherefore, I have spoken plainly unto you, that ye cannot misunderstand. And the words which I have spoken shall stand as a testimony against you; for they are sufficient to teach any man the right way; for the right way is to believe in Christ and deny him not; for by denying him ye also deny the prophets and the law.
29 And now behold, I say unto you that the right way is to believe in Christ, and deny him not; and Christ is the Holy One of Israel; wherefore ye must bow down before him, and worship him with all your might, mind, and strength, and your whole soul; and if ye do this ye shall in nowise be cast out.
30 And, inasmuch as it shall be expedient, ye must keep the performances and ordinances of God until the law shall be fulfilled which was given unto Moses.   
 "For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, saith the Lord; I will put my laws into their mind, and write them in their hearts: and I will be to them a God, and they shall be to me a people:"  
     It is truly by Christ that we can be saved.  He is the mediator of the New Covenant.  Baptism, begins you on the path.  The doctrine of Christ is simple.  The Sermon on the Mount and the Two Great Commandments, which when built upon are the foundation of coming unto the presence of our Savior.  On these hang all the law and the prophets.  Why?  It is heart, it is faith! We are no longer judged by our works, for works are dead, but we are judged by our faith, our motivation.  This is why the law could only bring death.  Had the Savior not died for our sins, and we were still under bondage to the law of Moses, then we would have to be perfect in living them, in order to receive salvation and therefore there would be no mercy.  Because of the atonement of Jesus Christ and His love and sacrifice, His great example, we have mercy bestowed upon us.  We are no longer allowed to judge based on actions, and effect judgement, but we are able to be forgiven, and show mercy, as we would desire for ourselves.  Moroni 7, 4 Nephi, these talk about how a society can live in Christ.  Charity, the pure love of Christ, the fruit of the tree of life, all these explain how we are to receive the Savior and how we will recognize Him when He comes.  
      I admonish you, who are still deciding whether to make this covenant or not, think about what you are doing. Read Galatians 4 and 5.  There truly are 2 covenants given to the House of Israel.  The New Covenant is the only covenant whereby men may be saved, whereby, the Gentiles may become the Sons of God or adopted into the House of Israel/Remnant of Jacob.  This covenant, well may get you to a place of humility, charity, love, but it will be after much effort to live the law, to which you are putting yourselves in bondage to.  Be free!  It is the Gentile who wants order, organization, rules and law.  They want the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil more than they want the Tree of Life.  Anytime we seek to choose right, or wrong, we choose to partake of the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. Moroni 7. In following Christ, there can be no judgement of right and wrong, for when we are led by Him, He in His Eternal wisdom, knows what is necessary for the growth of each individual.  We have story after story of people in the scriptures who did things that were not acceptable.  
      Many have said that King Benjamin put his people under a covenant.  This is false! While he hoped for it, The people desired to make a covenant with the Lord. This was done individually, for we do not have anything showing how the covenant was made.  As we learn in Hebrews, it is by the shedding of blood that these covenants were made.  They had their hearts changed and they could sing the song of redeeming love. Can you?  The Lord does make and keep personal, individual covenants, such as with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.  The Old and New Covenants were given to fulfill the promises which the Lord made with the Fathers.  The Book of Mormon and the teachings given therein, are also in fulfillment of the Covenant which the Lord made with the Fathers, for it is through the Book of Mormon that the House of Israel/Remnant of Jacob, may know the promises that were made to their Fathers, Lehi, Nephi, Enos, Mormon, Moroni, etc. We can individually receive the covenants given to the Fathers for ourselves, but to become His people, all we must do is accept Him, repent, become baptized, receive the Holy Ghost, and follow the Holy Ghost into the presence of Christ.  Anything more or less than this is not of God. Like the Israelites, who only had to keep their eyes on the serpent and be healed, so too, we must only keep our eyes and hearts focused on the Savior and we will be healed. I have read the covenant, what it says about loving each other is true, but people should be embarrassed that they have to be put under covenant to even try to keep those things.  The Lord wants your heart, give it to Him.  Stop living off of someone else's labor.  

2 Nephi 26: 33  33 For none of these iniquities come of the Lord; for he doeth that which is good among the children of men; and he doeth nothing save it be plain unto the children of men; and he inviteth them all to come unto him and partake of his goodness; and he denieth none that come unto him, black and white, bond and free, male and female; and he remembereth the heathen; and all are alike unto God, both Jew and Gentile. 

Monday, May 30, 2016

My Testimony

   I put in my letter of resignation from the LDS church this past Sunday.  I have pondered on this decision now for about three months.  The overriding factor in making the decision was the spirit.  I know that this will hurt my family and my friends, who are still members of the church.  I am sorry.  I could no longer attend the LDS church, knowing what I know.  I have been feeling like a hypocrite every time I go.  I love the branch the I am in.  I love the people.  They are so warm, loving and inviting, no matter who you are.  I have no problems with my local leaders.  I have not been offended. This decision isn't about that.  It was about being true to myself and my family and friends.  I don't believe in everything that the LDS church teaches and I know the LDS church to be in apostasy.  I don't believe the LDS leaders to be Prophets, Seers, and Revelators.  I don't believe in following a man, without question.  I don't believe that a "prophet" cannot lead us astray.  I am not joining another denomination; I am not attending another church, and I am not following any other man.

    In the last couple of months, I have struggled with the thought that I had family and friends that were holding hope that I again would come into full fellowship with the church, meaning holding a temple recommend.  I believe that I will never return to full fellowship within the LDS church.  I cannot abide by the requirements which the LDS church expects of people, to hold a temple recommend, as per the statements I made above.  I don't believe that any man has a right to put themselves between me and my relationship with Christ, even with my repentance.  Because I knew that there were people in my life, who were hoping that things would change and because I knew that I would never be able to go back ultimately, I made the decision, with my husband and God, to turn in the resignation.  It was still hard for me, once I made the decision, so I prayed and asked God to give me a witness.  That night, Saturday, I had a dream.  The Lord speaks to me through dreams.  I dreamt that I was in a war.  It was the middle ages, and there was this big castle that I was in, that I was trying to get out of.  This was the war.  At the end of the dream, I was standing outside of the castle, free.  I just stared in amazement at this big building that I was desperately trying to get out of. As I looked, I fell to my knees, raised my arms above my head and praised my God, My Lord, and Savior.  I praised in a way that I have never been able to, but have always wanted.  I was free, and my Lord freed me.  I knew, as I immediately woke up that that was my witness.  I knew what I had to do. I had to be free to praise, worship and live like my Father in Heaven desired of me and I knew that I would not be able to do that in the church, at least not without fear of being excommunicated.  I woke up Sunday morning and wrote the resignation letter, which was signed by both my husband and I.  I went to church that morning, to give it to the bishop.  As I was there, I wondered again if I was doing the right thing.  I knew that this would upset many people in my life, so I wanted to make sure it was right.  I sat and listened to the lessons.  One of the lessons was given by the branch president himself. He is a good man, who desires to follow Christ.  He had to leave early, so I knew that if I was going to do it, I was going to have to be ready to leave the class after he left.  Not wanting to create a lot of noise, I ended up walking out before he did, so that I could catch him coming out of the class.  As I waited, I was able to listen to a talk that was being given in the next wards sacrament meeting.  It was about Christ, and how sometimes He asks us to sacrifice.  We cannot attain unto Christ, without being willing to sacrifice.  As I was out in the hallway waiting, I spoke with Christ.  I told Him that I was scared about what this would do to my family and my various relationships.  He stated He understood.  He asked me if this wouldn't allow me to have more honest conversations with those important people in my life, which maybe this will allow for an openness that I hadn't had before.  I told Him that I could understand how that would work, and that was what I wanted.  I told Him that I would follow Him and do anything that He asked because I knew that with Him, I would have more family than I could ask for, more peace than I have ever experienced and more joy than I could ever imagine.  Right as I said that, the woman giving the talk in the other ward, stated, "The windows of heaven will be opened unto you." I knew this was God speaking to me.  Shortly after the Branch President came out and I was able to give him the letter.  I felt a lot of peace.

      I know this post is long, but my Savior has asked that I become a witness for Him and for that reason there is another part of my story that I must share.

      A little over a year ago, I was called to witness for a very dear friend of mine, in his "court of love."  Because of this and the direction I knew I was heading in, I felt that I too would end up with the possibility of excommunication.  One day, about a year ago, I was feeling extremely anxious.  I did not understand what was happening, as I am normally an anxious person.  I decided that instead of taking care of the things that needed to be taken care of, I would take the time to understand what the Lord wanted of me.  I sat down and immediately knew what was causing the anxiety.  I had a lot on my mind, and the possibility of excommunication was on my mind, more than I had thought initially. I sat down to write down what I would say to these men, who I figured I would have to face at some point.  I started writing my letter to these men as if I were speaking to them.  I started writing and one page into testifying of my Savior Jesus Christ and His love for all of us, a vision opened up in front of me.  Mind you; I have not locked the door, and I have kids all around me at certain points, but my focus is on this letter and the vision that I was experiencing.  I was taken to the high council room, where I had months before been a witness to a man, who was excommunicated and should not have been.  I was reading my letter, which at the time, I was writing.  I looked around the room, seeing each man's face and wondering if they even cared what I was saying.  Some were smiling, others were staring into space and others seemed to be pondering on what I was saying. I turned to my paper again and kept reading.  As I looked up again, I looked to the back of the room.  There standing in the back was a man that I immediately recognized as the Savior, my Savior.  He was smiling.  I continued reading, thinking that he was happy with what I was saying.  I then stopped, I thought about what I was doing.  The Savior was standing a few feet away from me, and here I was reading a paper about Him.  He is who I had been seeking, and here He was.  I wondered if anybody else was seeing Him.  I wondered if I was the only one.  I wanted to go to Him.  I knew that I would look silly as it was apparent, no one else had seen Him, but I put my papers down and immediately started walking towards Him.  He met me halfway.  I fell to my knees in awe of being in His presence.  I immediately saw His bare feet.  I saw the nail prints in His feet, and I kissed them. He touched me with his hands.  I saw them and again the nail prints in His hands.  He touched my head and spoke to me.  He said, "I am with you always."  With those words, the vision closed.  I have desired to recreate that in the last year, but I have not been able to.  I know what I saw was true.  I testify at this time that He lives.  That He loves all and that His desire is to come to us.  I have sought for this my entire life.  I have not understood the significance of this vision until yesterday, Sunday night, after I resigned.  My husband and I wanted to watch a movie, and as much as I didn't want to watch a dramatic movie, I felt led to watching Risen. *SPOILER ALERT*  There is a part at the end when Christ has disappeared.  His apostles are desperately seeking for Him. There is a great noise, and they see Him afar off.  He speaks to them.  He tells them that it is up to them now, to be witnesses and to testify of Him.  My heart burned within me like it never had before, but before he leaves them, He tells them, "I am with you, ALWAYS."  The spirit hit me with such force that I can no longer deny the importance of that experience a year ago.  I know what I have seen and heard.  I am humbled that the Lord would bless me with such a vision, but I am in complete awe of His love.   I testify this to be true, in the name of my Savior Jesus Christ.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016


       So, this post is going to be a bit more personal.  Well, all of my posts are personal, as they are all my testimony and what I believe.  This post comes many years in the making and I am sure there are many more years to go in order to understand what I am about to share.  I have struggled with anxiety and panic for a little over 8 years.  I know now that my anxiety has to do with the fact that I do not feel worthy of love.  I am afraid that others will see me and decide that I am not worth their time or effort.  I have even believed that I wasn't even worthy of God's love and acceptance.  I have had to forgive myself for many things, and I am still learning to forgive myself daily.  I have been reading a book, which I firmly think everyone should read.  It is called, "The Gifts of Imperfection". It is written by Brene Brown, who is a shame researcher.  In reading this book, I have seen how shame can be an extremely big motivator for many of us.  What I had to ask myself was, “Why is shame such a motivating tool?" During this time, I was dealing with my children's life experiences.  My daughter was told to write a note to me, telling me that if she did not turn in money to the school (which she had already done) that the other kids in the class would not be able to get their rewards.  This was not something that I would necessarily recognize as shaming, but because I was reading the book, I was able to see.  To belittle a child in front of the class and to make her feel as if it is their fault that nobody else is receiving something, is extremely shaming and damaging.  The teacher probably didn't know that that was what he was doing. For many parents, educators and employers, shame is the only way to get someone to do what you want them to do.  It is also a good motivator in many religions. My oldest daughter is in the Young Women’s program at church.  She came to me a while back and was struggling with going to church and even following the Young Women’s program.  So, for those of you who don’t know, the YW program consists of marking off a bunch of goals, in order to get, by the end of the program, a Womanhood of Recognition Award.  What I was told, when I was attending the Young Woman program was that if I completed the requirements and received my Womanhood of Recognition Award that I would be better able to be a good mom, wife and homemaker. My daughter came to me frustrated, because she didn’t want to be pushed into doing something, just to get an award.  She wanted to do it to grow her own testimony, but not because she wanted anything out of it.  I was surprised to hear what she had to say, as I hadn’t talked to her about my feelings about it at all.  I explained the expectations that this program placed on her and why.  I also gave her the choice to decide for herself, what she felt she needed to do. The Young Woman’s program of the LDS church, is just one example of a program that has the potential to cause shame.  The missionary program has the potential to be a shaming experience for many young men and later to the women. A cultural norm, not a commandment.  A young man who decides to not go on a mission, or cannot due to various reasons, gets completely shamed within the LDS community.  Young women tend to avoid dating men that have not gone on missions and leaders of the church are hesitant to call men who have not gone on missions to higher callings.  There are many other programs that I could add to this.  The Relief Society is a huge contributor to shame within the Mormon community.  Have you heard of Molly Mormon?  The do it all, self-sacrificing, woman who does not look to her needs, but always looks to the needs of others.  Her house is spotless, her children reverent and wholesome, and everyone eats organic.  She cooks meals for the needy and does her visiting teaching faithfully.  She is the picture of perfection.  How does someone feel when they cannot fulfill, what is supposed to be, the thing that brings them closer to Christ?  There is no way for us to meet everyone's expectations, and that is what reading about shame made me realize.  If there were no expectations, then we would not have to feel shamed when we don't do something just right.  What if all we did was follow the will of God?  We know that we will always be enough for Him and the things that He asks of us.  A thought to ponder. 

        I put expectations on myself, I have expectations placed on me from my husband, my kids, my parents, my siblings, my friends and all of society.  We cannot escape the expectations of others.  If we work for an employer we will have expectations.  If our children go to school, they will also have expectations, meaning we will have expectations placed on us.  We place expectations on ourselves all the time.  We need to be thinner, we need to be more patient, kinder, smarter, and faster, make more money, be more powerful, we need to spend more, and have more. Many of us feel that we won't be enough until we attain these things, therefore, waiting to experience full joy and peace until we attain them.  I recognized this in my own life.  I hope my husband doesn't mind me sharing, but we got into an argument. The truth is, due to my anxiety, I have a hard time driving to where I need to go. We live 30 min. from town and we have to drive over a mountain pass to get there.   I tend to not make plans, unless I know that my husband can take time off of work or it is after work hours and he can drive me.  He has been very patient in the process.  I have tried to make it as comfortable as possible, but sometimes it cannot be managed.  This time something came up that was important to me, but not necessarily important to him.  I felt rejected and alone.  I felt like what I needed wasn't valuable, therefore making me invaluable as well.  This isn't true, but this is the way I felt.  I knew that my husband wasn’t required to do this, but we had an “agreement”.  This was the way we would make things work.  Unfortunately, because of where we live and the lack of resources, he has been my only support and resource.  I have 7 children and when I make an appointment for 1, I have to take them all in.  He is usually my chauffer, my babysitter and the only adult I get to talk to in a day sometimes.  He has been extremely patient, but this particular week, we were both feeling the stress of the anxiety and panic.  He was feeling trapped by the anxiety and so was I.  Every time that I would get upset over this, the thought would come to me that it wasn’t his responsibility and if I just had more faith, then I could drive myself.  This was difficult for me.  I wanted someone to blame, but deep down inside, there was no one to blame except me.  I continued reading in the book during this time.  While it was extremely difficult, I came to the realization, that my husband wasn’t happy and I wasn’t happy.  He had felt trapped by my weakness, just like I did, but he didn’t need to.  There was a part of the book that talked about boundaries and how important it is to set boundaries, in order to become more compassionate.  Well, for a while now, I had not been feeling a lot of compassion from my husband for the struggle that I was going through, and why would he, he felt trapped by it.  I was starting to wake up. I was starting to see what the underlying factor was.  To top it all off, I had been struggling with living where we were.  I had been feeling like if we could just move, then I would drive more, I could take care of my responsibilities better and depend less on my husband, win-win. Unfortunately, God had different plans. It was just not working out to move.  I received a blessing from my husband and was told from God, that I needed to let the idea of moving go, that if we were to move, he would let us know.  He wanted me to live in the present and enjoy my time with my children.  The whole time I am saying to myself, like a little 3 year old, “But I don’t want to let it go.”  Not funny at the time, but a little silly now.  Afterwards, I felt the prompting from God, telling me that those who lose their lives for His sake, will find them.  For those of you who don’t know me, I am extremely lousy at farm life.  I am more of a city person.  I love people, I love being around people, I love theater, arts, singing, and dancing. Since living here for almost 3 years, I have told people this is my hell.  I feel like a failure every day of my life.  I can’t get this whole type of living down.  I also know that there would be many who would love to trade places with me.  I know, I am extremely blessed, but because of my weaknesses, this has literally been my perfect storm.  Needless to say, there were a lot of steps to my AHA! moment.  Many painful moments that left me feeling extremely vulnerable and alone.  I decided to lift all of my expectations from my husband. This was extremely painful for me, as I was picturing in my mind, someone who finally felt free, running off in the distance yelling Hallelujah!!!!  That would be what I would do if I could rid myself of what is trapping me.  Because he is literally my best friend and in many ways, the only one I can talk to about everything, I felt completely alone.  Would he still stay?  Would he still want to be with me, if I let go of all of my expectations that keep him sticking around?  Would he love me still?  Wow, what questions to ask.  It seems silly, but the feelings are real.  Then as I spoke to him about what I was going to do, I recognized some expectations that he had placed on me.  I realized, not only do I get to free him from the expectations, but I get to free myself of the expectations.  HALLELUJAH!!!!!  The next day I prayed to my Father in Heaven.  I usually write down my prayers, as this gives me more ability to concentrate on my prayers and write down the thoughts and feelings of inspiration that I have.  I was telling God, that I was letting go of expectations, that I was scared about where this would lead and that I needed His help to let me know where I was putting expectations.  I asked him if the pain was worth it.  He didn’t answer my question.  I started asking for forgiveness for being angry with Him and that I was thankful for everything He did for me.  Then a light bulb came on in my head.  What expectations was I putting on God?  I realized that I expected Him to provide everything I needed.  I expected Him to give me health.  I expected Him to sustain me from day to day with breath.  Oh my gosh! How silly of me.   Here was I, this puny human, thinking that I had some kind of right to receive what I had been receiving from Him.  I then told God that I took all expectations off of Him.  I would no longer expect Him to provide everything I needed, or give me breath from day to day.  This is an extremely scary place to be in.  This is the epitome of free agency.  I have given all of those in my life the agency to move and function in the way they need to, without my feelings of anger or resentment.  I have also given myself the freedom to say no, without feeling guilty or shamed for not being able to be everything for everyone.  Heavenly Father loves me just the way I am, with all of my weaknesses and sins.  I am enough for all of the tasks He has set before me. 

      So, now that I have removed, or am trying to remove all expectations from everyone in my life, what does my life look like?  Well, I just started, but I can already see the peace that can come into a home where the expectations are not there.  My husband is more desirous to talk, not because he has to, but because he wants to, and I can be more grateful for the time that he spends with me, because I know he doesn’t have to.  I have been moved from a place of being let down, to a place of gratitude for all that my Father does for me.  What do I hope it will look like, when I am done with this?  Well, I hope it looks like a woman walking in total harmony with the earth.  I told my husband that I could totally see myself becoming the next Buddha, being grateful for all of life, because all of life and what comes into my life will come as a blessing and not because I expected it to.  It looks like someone who recognizes that they are loved, because she can welcome everyone that comes into her circle as a gift. I recognize that even though I am not the type of mother that I so desired to be when I was a young woman, because of my weaknesses, that I can still enjoy being a mother to my sweet children. I am slowly letting go of the expectations that I have placed on myself.  I am excited to see where this goes.  I can see it in the distance.  The peace that I have been desiring is within reach.  I am grateful for what Father has been teaching me.  Is this how Zion will be built?  I don’t know, but it feels really good, to know that God doesn’t have any expectations on us either. The rain falls on the righteous and the wicked.  He gives us everything, no matter how good or bad we are.  He would love for all of us to return to Him, but it is not an expectation.  Let us move in a place of gratitude for all things that are in our life.  Maybe as we move from a place of expectation to a place of gratitude, we can see all of the blessings in our lives and the way God is moving us to receive all that He has.  May you all be abundantly blessed and thank you for reading. I know you don’t have to.  

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Apostasy of the LDS Church.

My heart is saddened today, by the things that I have been seeing lately, coming out of the LDS church.  I went to Salt Lake City, UT this past week, for a wedding.  My sister's wedding.  I was also there the week before for a seminar.  Both times, I was right in front of the Salt Lake Temple. Both times, I recognized and walked into the City Creek Center Mall and saw the housing that was built up right on the corner, across from the Salt Lake Temple. I pondered on these 2 buildings and wondered, what would cause the church to be okay with building such edifices, while there is so much struggle, going on around them. I saw many different men and women and children.  Some were wealthy and well off, others, were the destitute of the area.  The down trodden, the suffering and hurting.  One woman came up to us, as my husband and I were walking with our children, and told us that she needed a place for the night for her children and herself.  In another area, a woman was asking for money for a hotel room for herself, to be able to sleep.  Then there was another, who being cold, just put her head down in all her jackets and didn't even look up, but her sign, had butterflies and hearts on it.  As we walked to enter into the temple, our hearts had fallen.  We saw many other men and women, entering and leaving the temple, not even giving a second thought to these people. Ignoring their pleas and hurt.  We know what the church teaches the members.  "Don't give them money." Does President Monson ignore these pleas?  Do the Quorum of the Twelve, watching the pain and sadness ignore these pleas? This saddened us, so much.  There were tears in our eyes.  I was surprised to see the tears in my older children's eyes.  They wanted to help.  We walked to the ATM with our children, as we walked, a man asked for anything that might help.  My husband told him that we were walking to the ATM and on our way back, we would give him something.  He didn't believe us.  As we returned my husband pulled out some money and gave it to him.  He was very surprised that we came back and that we helped him.  As I thought about him and the various other women who were struggling and who saw us, I thought about how they must have seen us.  They probably see a lot of men and women walking around Temple Square, dressed in nice clothes, supposedly Christian.  My heart sank when this man, didn't believe us.  How many other people, dressed like us, coming out of the temple, just push past him and ignore him?  What kind of picture does that paint to him and others who struggle like him?  We walked past all the women we had seen and gave each of them something to help them on their way.  We don't have much, but because we had been blessed by loving and caring people, we wanted to pass that along. I walked through the mall several times, with a friend.  I thought to myself, "there is no way, that I could even shop in those stores."  Each and every single one was so richly decorated.  As I spoke with my husband, I said to him, that I felt more comfortable with the poor and wished even that I could have stayed and spoken with them.  I felt so uncomfortable, even in the temple.  I didn't fit in.  I thought about Christ and wondered, if he felt the same way too.  Did he feel more comfortable with the down trodden, the poor and the broken hearted?  We know that He spent a lot of time administering to the poor, healing the sick, raising the dead, comforting the lonely and the broken.  Do we do that?  Can we as a people say that we take upon ourselves the work of God, the work of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ?  I am not saying that it is bad to be wealthy, but what are we doing with it?  Are we doing enough?  Are we doing what we can?  Do we live within our means, in order to help others?  I have seen such an example, and though  I don't have much, I can live better, so as to have more to help others.
 Mosiah 2:19 And behold also, if I, whom ye call your king, who has spent his days in your service, and yet has been in the service of God, do merit any thanks from you, O how you ought to thank your heavenly King!
 20 I say unto you, my brethren, that if you should render all the thanks and praise which your whole soul has power to possess, to that God who has created you, and has kept and preserved you, and has caused that ye should rejoice, and has granted that ye should live in peace one with another— 21 I say unto you that if ye should serve him who has created you from the beginning, and is preserving you from day to day, by lending you breath, that ye may live and move and do according to your own will, and even supporting you from one moment to another—I say, if ye should serve him with all your whole souls yet ye would be unprofitable servants.  
Mosiah 3: For behold, the time cometh, and is not far distant, that with power, the Lord Omnipotent who reigneth, who was, and is from all eternity to all eternity, shall come down from heaven among the children of men, and shall dwell in a tabernacle of clay, and shall go forth amongst men, working mighty miracles, such as healing the sick, raising the dead, causing the lame to walk, the blind to receive their sight, and the deaf to hear, and curing all manner of diseases. And he shall cast out devils, or the evil spirits which dwell in the hearts of the children of men. And lo, he shall suffer temptations, and pain of body,hunger, thirst, and fatigue, even more than man can suffer, except it be unto death; for behold, blood cometh from every pore, so great shall be his anguish for the wickedness and the abominations of his people.   8 And he shall be called Jesus Christ, the Son of God, the Father of heaven and earth, the Creator of all things from the beginning; and his mother shall be called Mary.  
Mosiah 4: 11 And again I say unto you as I have said before, that as ye have come to the knowledge of the glory of God, or if ye have known of his goodness and have tasted of his love, and have received a remission of your sins, which causeth such exceedingly great joy in your souls, even so I would that ye should remember, and always retain in remembrance, the greatness of God, and your own nothingness, and his goodness and long-suffering towards you, unworthy creatures, and humble yourselves even in the depths of humility, calling on the name of the Lord daily, and standing steadfastly in the faith of that which is to come, which was spoken by the mouth of the angel. 12 And behold, I say unto you that if ye do this ye shall always rejoice, and be filled with the love of God, and always retain a remission of your sins; and ye shall grow in the knowledge of the glory of him that created you, or in the knowledge of that which is just and true. 13 And ye will not have a mind to injure one another, but to live peaceably, and to render to every man according to that which is his due. 14 And ye will not suffer your children that they go hungry, or naked; neither will ye suffer that they transgress the laws of God, and fight and quarrel one with another, and serve the devil, who is the master of sin, or who is the evil spirit which hath been spoken of by our fathers, he being an enemy to all righteousness. 15 But ye will teach them to walk in the ways of truth and soberness; ye will teach them to love one another, and to serve one another. 16 And also, ye yourselves will succor those that stand in need of your succor; ye will administer of your substance unto him that standeth in need; and ye will not suffer that the beggar putteth up his petition to you in vain, and turn him out to perish. 17 Perhaps thou shalt say: The man has brought upon himself his misery; therefore I will stay my hand, and will not give unto him of my food, nor impart unto him of my substance that he may not suffer, for his punishments are just—18 But I say unto you, O man, whosoever doeth this the same hath great cause to repent; and except he repenteth of that which he hath done he perisheth forever, and hath no interest in the kingdom of God. 19 For behold, are we not all beggars? Do we not all depend upon the same Being, even God, for all the substance which we have, for both food and raiment, and for gold, and for silver, and for all the riches which we have of every kind? 20 And behold, even at this time, ye have been calling on his name, and begging for a remission of your sins. And has he suffered that ye have begged in vain? Nay; he has poured out his Spirit upon you, and has caused that your hearts should be filled with joy, and has caused that your mouths should be stopped that ye could not find utterance, so exceedingly great was your joy.  21 And now, if God, who has created you, on whom you are dependent for your lives and for all that ye have and are, doth grant unto you whatsoever ye ask that is right, in faith, believing that ye shall receive, O then, how ye ought to impart of the substance that ye have one to another.  22 And if ye judge the man who putteth up his petition to you for your substance that he perish not, and condemn him, how much more just will be your condemnation for withholding your substance, which doth not belong to you but to God, to whom also your life belongeth; and yet ye put up no petition, nor repent of the thing which thou hast done.  23 I say unto you, wo be unto that man, for his substance shall perish with him; and now, I say these things unto those who are rich as pertaining to the things of this world.  24 And again, I say unto the poor, ye who have not and yet have sufficient, that ye remain from day to day; I mean all you who deny the beggar, because ye have not; I would that ye say in your hearts that: I give not because I havenot, but if I had I would give.  25 And now, if ye say this in your hearts ye remain guiltless, otherwise ye are condemned; and your condemnation is just for ye covet that which ye have not received.  26 And now, for the sake of these things which I have spoken unto you—that is, for the sake of retaining a remission of your sins from day to day, that ye may walk guiltless before God—I would that ye should impart of your substance to the poor, every man according to that which he hath, such as feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, visiting the sick and administering to their relief, both spiritually and temporally, according to their wants.  27 And see that all these things are done in wisdom and order; for it is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength. And again, it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he might win the prize; therefore, all things must be done in order.
Let us awaken!!

 2 Nephi 12:O house of Jacob, come ye and let us walk in the light of the Lord; yea, come, for ye have all gone astray, every one to his wicked ways. Therefore, O Lord, thou hast forsaken thy people, the house of Jacob, because they be replenished from the east, and hearken unto soothsayers like the Philistines, and they please themselves in the children of strangers. Their land also is full of silver and gold, neither is there any end of their treasures; their land is also full of horses, neither is there any end of their chariots. Their land is also full of idols; they worship the work of their own hands, that which their own fingers have made. And the mean man boweth not down, and the great man humbleth himself not, therefore, forgive him not. 10 O ye wicked ones, enter into the rock, and hide thee in the dust, for the fear of the Lord and the glory of his majesty shall smite thee. 11 And it shall come to pass that the lofty looks of man shall be humbled, and the haughtiness of men shall be bowed down, and the Lord alone shall be exalted in that day. 12 For the day of the Lord of Hosts soon cometh upon all nations, yea, upon every one; yea, upon the proud and lofty, and upon every one who is lifted up, and he shall be brought low.
2 Nephi 19:16 For the leaders of this people cause them to err; and they that are led of them are destroyed.
The leaders are teaching against the doctrine of Christ.  They are teaching to ignore the beggar, under the pretense that it is better to teach a man to fish, than to give him a fish.  What about doing both?  What if we had spent the billion dollars to build City Creek Mall, could go to building a shelter, then in that shelter, you teach the people that come to help themselves, give them courage, offer counseling, help them get back on their feet?  We are so afraid to say that what these leaders are doing is wrong, because we are afraid that we might be wrong.  Ask!! Ask the Lord. What should you do?  What is right?  King Benjamin states that in order to retain a remission of our sins, we should help the poor, clothe and feed the beggar, but the leaders of the church are teaching against this.  Why?  Why are they teaching against the scriptures?  Why do they teach against the prophets of Old? If Christ, who is perfect, teaches while using quotes from the scriptures, then why are the Leaders of the church now, going against the scriptures to teach this principle?  If they can go against this teaching that is clearly in the scriptures, what else are they teaching that is not supported by scripture or previous revelation.  We know that the church changes with the changing winds of the times.  Is this why they teach to follow the prophet?  
 2 Nephi 28: Yea, and there shall be many which shall teach after this manner, false and vain and foolish doctrines, and shall be puffed up in their hearts, and shall seek deep to hide their counsels from the Lord; and their works shall be in the dark. 10 And the blood of the saints shall cry from the ground against them. 11 Yea, they have all gone out of the way; they have become corrupted. 12 Because of pride, and because of false teachers, and false doctrine, their churches have become corrupted, and their churches are lifted up; because of pride they are puffed up. 13 They rob the poor because of their fine sanctuaries; they rob the poor because of their fine clothing; and they persecute the meek and the poor in heart, because in their pride they are puffed up. 14 They wear stiff necks and high heads; yea, and because of pride, and wickedness, and abominations, and whoredoms, they have all gone astray save it be a few, who are the humble followers of Christ; nevertheless, they are led, that in many instances they do err because they are taught by the precepts of men.  15 O the wise, and the learned, and the rich, that are puffed up in the pride of their hearts, and all those who preach false doctrines, and all those who commit whoredoms, and pervert the right way of the Lord, wo, wo, wo be unto them, saith the Lord God Almighty, for they shall be thrust down to hell!  16 Wo unto them that turn aside the just for a thing of naught and revile against that which is good, and say that it is of no worth! For the day shall come that the Lord God will speedily visit the inhabitants of the earth; and in that day that they are fully ripe in iniquity they shall perish. 17 But behold, if the inhabitants of the earth shall repent of their wickedness and abominations they shall not be destroyed, saith the Lord of Hosts. 18 But behold, that great and abominable church, the whore of all the earth, must tumble to the earth, and great must be the fall thereof. 19 For the kingdom of the devil must shake, and they which belong to it must needs be stirred up unto repentance, or the devil will grasp them with his everlasting chains, and they be stirred up to anger, and perish;  20 For behold, at that day shall he rage in the hearts of the children of men, and stir them up to anger against that which is good. 21 And others will he pacify, and lull them away into carnal security, that they will say: All is well in Zion; yea, Zion prospereth, all is well—and thus the devil cheateth their souls, and leadeth them away carefully down to hell. (stay on the good ship Zion?)22 And behold, others he flattereth away, and telleth them there is no hell; and he saith unto them: I am no devil, for there is none—and thus he whispereth in their ears, until he grasps them with his awful chains, from whence there is no deliverance. 23 Yea, they are grasped with death, and hell; and death, and hell, and the devil, and all that have been seized therewith must stand before the throne of God, and bejudged according to their works, from whence they must go into the place prepared for them, even a lake of fire and brimstone, which is endless torment. 24 Therefore, wo be unto him that is at ease in Zion! 25 Wo be unto him that crieth: All is well! 26 Yea, wo be unto him that hearkeneth unto the precepts of men, and denieth the power of God, and the gift of the Holy Ghost!  27 Yea, wo be unto him that saith: We have received, and we need no more! 28 And in fine, wo unto all those who tremble, and are angry because of the truth of God! For behold, he that is built upon the rock receiveth it with gladness; and he that is built upon a sandy foundation trembleth lest he shall fall. 29 Wo be unto him that shall say: We have received the word of God, and we need no more of the word of God, for we have enough! 30 For behold, thus saith the Lord God: I will give unto the children of men line upon line, precept upon precept, here a little and there a little; and blessed are those who hearken unto my precepts, and lend an ear unto my counsel, for they shall learn wisdom; for unto him that receiveth I will give more; and from them that shall say, We have enough, from them shall be taken away even that which they have. 31 Cursed is he that putteth his trust in man, or maketh flesh his arm, or shall hearken unto the precepts of men, save their precepts shall be given by the power of the Holy Ghost. 32 Wo be unto the Gentiles, saith the Lord God of Hosts! For notwithstanding I shall lengthen out mine arm unto them from day to day, they will deny me; nevertheless, I will be merciful unto them, saith the Lord God, if they will repent and come unto me; for mine arm is lengthened out all the day long, saith the Lord God of Hosts.
3 Nephi 16:And because of the mercies of the Father unto the Gentiles, and also the judgments of the Father upon my people who are of the house of Israel, verily, verily, I say unto you, that after all this, and I have caused my people who are of the house of Israel to be smitten, and to be afflicted, and to be slain, and to be cast out from among them, and to become hated by them, and to become a hiss and a byword among them—10 And thus commandeth the Father that I should say unto you: At that day when the Gentiles shall sin against my gospel, and shall reject the fulness of my gospel, and shall be lifted up in the pride of their hearts above all nations, and above all the people of the whole earth, and shall be filled with all manner of lyings, and of deceits, and of mischiefs, and all manner of hypocrisy, and murders, and priestcrafts, and whoredoms, and of secret abominations; and if they shall do all those things, and shall reject the fulness of my gospel, behold, saith the Father, I will bring the fulness of my gospel from among them. 11 And then will I remember my covenant which I have made unto my people, O house of Israel, and I will bring my gospel unto them. 12 And I will show unto thee, O house of Israel, that the Gentiles shall not have power over you; but I will remember my covenant unto you, O house of Israel, and ye shall come unto the knowledge of the fulness of my gospel. 13 But if the Gentiles will repent and return unto me, saith the Father, behold they shall be numbered among my people, O house of Israel. 14 And I will not suffer my people, who are of the house of Israel, to go through among them, and tread them down, saith the Father. 15 But if they will not turn unto me, and hearken unto my voice, I will suffer them, yea, I will suffer my people, O house of Israel, that they shall go through among them, and shall tread them down, and they shall be as salt that hath lost its savor, which is thenceforth good for nothing but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of my people, O house of Israel. 16 Verily, verily, I say unto you, thus hath the Father commanded me—that I should give unto this people this land for their inheritance. 17 And then the words of the prophet Isaiah shall be fulfilled, which say: 18 Thy watchmen shall lift up the voice; with the voice together shall they sing, for they shall see eye to eye when the Lord shall bring again Zion. 19 Break forth into joy, sing together, ye waste places of Jerusalem; for the Lord hath comforted his people, he hath redeemed Jerusalem. 20 The Lord hath made bare his holy arm in the eyes of all the nations; and all the ends of the earth shall see the salvation of God.

The church is in apostasy and has been since Brigham Young!  They have gone against the teachings of Jesus Christ. That is what it means to apostatize. I know that the things I say will be seen as apostate, but I am not leaving the teachings of Christ, by choosing to follow a leader. The teaching of plural wives, was wrong, while I understand it in one way, the way it was done, was an abomination before God.  Paying tithing to go into the temple, was never required. Denying saving ordinances to those who want them, is against the teachings of Christ, who said,"Deny them not!"  I know that what I say is truth.  I do not deny that which God has shown me.  I have seen the abominations of the church, I have seen the pain and atrocities that happen within the leadership and the pain of the faces of those who have suffered through these things.  I had a dream and an angel of the Lord came to me, and showed me these things.  I cannot, nor will I deny it.  If we do not wake up, If we cannot see for ourselves, we will lose and we will be in the same apostasy that the church is in.  We will all fall.  Become accountable to God for yourselves.  No one else will answer for you, when the time of judgement comes.  Monson, Bednar, Hinckley, or even Joseph Smith, will not be there to answer for where you chose to place your choices.  You must decide for yourself, but we do know that Joseph Smith was to restore the gospel as well as the priesthood.  He restored all things, we will be accountable for the teachings, which he restored to the earth, that we no longer follow, or adhere to. He was working to build Zion.  How much closer are we to doing that 171 years after his death?  I think we have just removed ourselves farther and farther from that.  In 4th Nephi, after Christ appears to the Nephites and the Lamanites, there is a time of peace, how did they create this peace? 

4 Nephi 1:1 And it came to pass that the thirty and fourth year passed away, and also the thirty and fifth, and behold the disciples of Jesus had formed a church of Christ in all the lands round about. And as many as did come unto them, and did truly repent of their sins, were baptized in the name of Jesus; and they did also receive the Holy Ghost. And it came to pass in the thirty and sixth year, the people were all converted unto the Lord, upon all the face of the land, both Nephites and Lamanites, and there were no contentions and disputations among them, and every man did deal justly one with another. And they had all things common among them; therefore there were not rich and poor, bond and free, but they were all made free, and partakers of the heavenly gift. And it came to pass that the thirty and seventh year passed away also, and there still continued to be peace in the land. And there were great and marvelous works wrought by the disciples of Jesus, insomuch that they did heal the sick, and raise the dead, and cause the lame to walk, and the blind to receive their sight, and the deaf to hear; and all manner of miracles did they work among the children of men; and in nothing did they work miracles save it were in the name of Jesus. And thus did the thirty and eighth year pass away, and also the thirty and ninth, and forty and first, and the forty and second, yea, even until forty and nine years had passed away, and also the fifty and first, and the fifty and second; yea, and even until fifty and nine years had passed away. And the Lord did prosper them exceedingly in the land; yea, insomuch that they did build cities again where there had been cities burned. Yea, even that great city Zarahemla did they cause to be built again. But there were many cities which had been sunk, and waters came up in the stead thereof; therefore these cities could not be renewed. 10 And now, behold, it came to pass that the people of Nephi did wax strong, and did multiply exceedingly fast, and became an exceedingly fair and delightsome people. 11 And they were married, and given in marriage, and were blessed according to the multitude of the promiseswhich the Lord had made unto them. 12 And they did not walk any more after theperformances and ordinances of the law of Moses; but they did walk after the commandments which they had received from their Lord and their God, continuing infasting and prayer, and in meeting together oft both to pray and to hear the word of the Lord. 13 And it came to pass that there was no contention among all the people, in all the land; but there were mighty miracles wrought among the disciples of Jesus. 14 And it came to pass that the seventy and first year passed away, and also the seventy and second year, yea, and in fine, till the seventy and ninth year had passed away; yea, even an hundred years had passed away, and the disciples of Jesus, whom he had chosen, had all gone to the paradise of God, save it were the three who should tarry; and there were other disciples ordained in their stead; and also many of that generation had passed away. 15 And it came to pass that there was no contention in the land, because of the love of God which did dwell in the hearts of the people. 16 And there were no envyings, nor strifes, nor tumults, nor whoredoms, nor lyings, nor murders, nor any manner of lasciviousness; and surely there could not be a happierpeople among all the people who had been created by the hand of God. 17 There were no robbers, nor murderers, neither were there Lamanites, nor any manner of -ites; but they were inone, the children of Christ, and heirs to the kingdom of God. 18 And how blessed were they! For the Lord did bless them in all their doings; yea, even they were blessed and prospered until an hundred and ten years had passed away; and the first generation from Christ had passed away, and there was no contention in all the land.
I do not say these things of myself.  I have so much that I can do better, and I do not mean to boast, for it is God who sustains me from day to day and it is He who provides all things, but we must ask ourselves, have we felt to sing the song of redeeming love, and if so, can we feel so now? (Alma 5:26)